We all should stop living in the past.
I've had enough of disappointments.

I've always worked for everything that I earned, but now it just seems as though I've lost all directions and motivations. There's nothing to drive me forword, nothing to look forward to. The biting temptation to just muster enough courage to head to the office and take that slip of paper is eating me. This, my dear folks, is TERROR. Terror is awful apprehension. I am scared beyond words that I just can't make it. The temptation to just walk away is great.

"Conquering your fear is courage, not even trying is failing."
-Malina

I tried. Did I?

I have no qualms about attending lessons and sitting through lectures that bore the hell out of me. I'm just living my life by day, never once looking beyond one week. This is bad, this is bad. I need motivations. I need to reconstruct my mind.

2+2=5

I must believe. What the mind can believe and conceive, it can achieve.


And you, just cut me some slack.