The year has concluded and with this new year, many things will change and I am going to empower myself this year (because I have to).

My computer has been a wreck! I barely get past the dreary Windows set up so this is my comeback to the Internet world (after what, a month?), though just for a short while because I'm using Kak Yana's lappie, logged on some Wireless connection. Some.

I think this has to be said:
Withdrawal does not necessarily have to be out of ignorance and indifference because sometimes, you care so much for someone that you know that you have to drift a little just to make things better for that person. As ludicrous as it sounds, yes, we all feel that way at some point of time. When friendship transcends the norm and becomes paramount, any harm done can do a lot of damage. A lot. Time may not heal all wounds but it allows for acceptance and forgiveness. You apologise, you plead and then you withdraw because persistence does not always work. In fact, it backfires. I am not ready to crash through the labyrinth and end up burning everything, so I am keeping a distance and an eye. We're not talking about an attempt at flying or what have you- it is something bigger and of greater significance and importance so screwing up is not an option at all.

I wish you know how much I miss talking to you. We go way back, and way back was a long time ago. What is unconveyed is, I assure you, not any less meaningful. The benefit of the doubt may strain and even break some things but it would allow room for better things to be forged in the future (I hope).

We often wish that humans would be brighter than they are, so that they would stop living in delusions and realise where their lives are heading but that is impossible; our community is imperfect. There are those who are worldly-wise and live strictly by principles and then there are those who are weak and susceptible to surrounding perceptions. The divide between the former and the latter is wide and to cross from one side to the other means to be an entirely diffrently person. But we all can do something about it, perhaps if we had tried hard enough.

I am looking forward to embracing the big As with the support of my beloved parents who are taking it in slowly but with (unexpected) understanding.

2007 had not ended in a good note (though it was pretty exciting and I had countless exploring adventures) but I hope that 2008 would make up for all that is lost.

Have a good year ahead!