my dear friend, i hope your backbone gets better.
i feel like i should have cared more, but it wouldn't have made a difference anyway would it? it's not going to make things any better because it's not supposed to be so in the first place and i'm left to wonder if i should be worried or indifferent and if i should visit or not.

may better days come soon.

i rushed home today because it's my mum's birthday and i came home only to realise she's at the doctor again. i'm worried because she's been sick for a while and i just feel like i want to cry because i don't want anything to happen to her. and it's such a special day. and i was shocked because my dad hadn't told me anything and i had to come home to an empty house just to find out.

maybe it's just a tough period. but it's too tough and too long.